-=back to sch=-

did nothing much todae.. went for lecture n tutorial.. well getting closer to my fren more.. hope so la.. taking my first step out.. hAa.. den todae went with yi n berlin to print out lecture notez.. print for at least one hr siaz.. wanted to meet fanny but no money to go sing k.. so went with yi to sim lim to c thumbdrive.. cos must get one for CSA.. den went back to intercontinential to find jane.. so long nber c pat le.. haA.. heard tat pat is still working at there.. n took up new cos.. hAa.. wish her all the best ya.. not in a veri gd mood todae.. cos someone make mi veri disappointed.. forget it lah.. nothing to sae also.. think i getting veri lo so.. hope i starting to get used to poly life.. hAa..

after one week of poly life..

well.. finally one week of life is over.. still cannot know my fren well.. kinda worry.. maybe mondae i shld make myself more friendly in sch.. join them for lunch.. they are a group of active girlz.. but maybe i'm still abit shy ba.. haiz.. going to have project soon.. i don noe where will i landed into.. but i do hope i can get to noe the group first ya... my fren wish mi good luck k.. hAa.. thankz..

-=first dae of sch in TP=-

i finally get into TP but it was a bad wan.. i'm not the same class as huiyi n berlin.. i m all alone.. so scared n afraid.. don noe wad to do.. my classmate all are much more younger than mi.. don noe wad to talk to them.. feel so lost siaz.. but my aim there is to study hard n not to make fren.. but tat doesnt mean fren are not impt.. cos we still need them.. jus hope i can get into some nice grouping with my fren for projects.. well had a gd cry jus now.. but realli thank to my fren for their concern.. thank fanny for calling to ask mi how's first dae of sch.. think she is concern also.. thank alot sis.. thank juliet for calling n console mi.. n last but not least dear dear is also there to console mi.. feel abit better le.. so hope can start a better dae tomolo.. think i better stay with my class if not i will have a hard time.. thankz fren n dear u all are the best..

-=21/5/05=-

todae wake up early.. cos got a call from the TP again.. uncle sam.. called mi like scold mi like tat.. sae called mi alot of time..but he call my hse lei.. not my hp.. idiot.. den tell mi this n tat.. don noe wad he talking.. but all thankz to him tat i can get into poly loh.. hAa.. den todae went to work.. dear dear come n fetch mi home.. abt one week nber sae dear dear le.. kinda miss him.. although my action nber saw.. but i realli care.. i don wan to everytime quarrel with him over small matter.. dear dear i wan u to know.. the days i cant c u, the days i quarrel with u i miss u anot.. i love u dear...

-=20/5/05=-

yesterdae was my last paper... hAa.. so relaxing.. after my paper.. i went for registeration for my new school temasek poly.. got into retail management.. although it's not my dream choice.. but at least i still got into poly.. my mum n dad are happy for mi.. they wanted mi to study hard.. well i'm going to strive for the best to study as hard as i can.. hAa.. erm.. back to where i m.. i n huiyi went to TP den was at there for at least one hr.. den after tat yi went to plucked eyebrow.. so i acc her.. den i take bus to mrt station to meet fanny ay orchard.. hAa.. i was late for 15 min.. hAa.. poor fanny have to wait.. den after tat we went to far east to walk for a while.. jac join us shortly after tat.. she dye her hair n make a temporary perm.. hAa.. so cute n mature sia.. not like small kid siaz.. hAa.. suddenly become a new grown lady.. hAa.. so preety lei.. hAa..

abt 6 plus we went to find tiffany.. hAa.. she is doing her new promotion of perfume.. hAa.. she dressed like a fairy siaz.. den her colleguae keep sprinkle the perfume everywhere hAa.. make the perfume smell so heavy.. hAa.. den after tat we went to shop for a while.. hAa.. take neoprint hAa.. so cute siaz.. lolz.. hAa.. while it was so memorable for mi.. cos we all graduate lei.. i miss my ite fren n i nber forget them.. esp fanny , jac, kim n tiffany.. my best fren n sisters.. miss u all terribly.. best wishes for u all whenever u go..

-=sTreSs=-

ONe MOre pAPer to go n i will be free.. last paper is auditing.. so stress siaz.. need to remember 6 chapter.. haiz.. going crazy le.. hAa.. finally i noe wad i can do... blogging.. hEe.. dear dear went to slp le.. cos he go fishing todae in the afternoon.. den i stay at home whole dae to learn my auditing.. without even eating siaz.. cos not hungry.. den wait till mum brought some food back.. hAa.. haiz.. heard tat fanny n jac cant get into poly siaz.. while my chances of going in soon drop.. n my hope jus crashed.. well it's ok.. i decided to take up part time study n at the same time.. i will probably find a full time job ya.. hAa.. i think i got a bit of depressopn le.. cant realli take stress nowadaes.. haiz.. how m i going to face the working world.. when i cant even take stress now.. while after fridae.. i'm going to haven fun.. at the same time looking for job.. hAa.. anyone got any full time job do notify mi ahz... hAa.. thankz..

-=deAr deAR=-

well i think dear n mi are ok le.. don noe wad the change in him suddenly ask mi call him yesterdae.. ask mi don stress etc.. den todae he went fishing he took a pic of sea view let mi c.. i ask him y did he do tat.. he sae let mi c the view den i wont be so stress.. hAa.. indeed maybe tat is wad i need.. cos it's abt maybe one month i haven been able to c the night view.. hAa.. den dear sent mi another pic of him at the kranji res.. hAa.. so funny.. dear dear keep emphazied tat i don be so stress.. while dear is always the one consoling mi n giving mi encourgaement.. despite i don hab the chance to go in poly.. i think he wont look down on mi.. thankz deAr... maybe i shldnt stress myself tat's y.. hAa.. gonna enjoy the holidae.. hAa.. it's time to take a break from everything.. hAa..

-=Headache=-

ToDAe jus finish my costing paper.. finally another release.. fanny suggested we go jac's house study.. den they have their lunch n dessert den we headed to jac house n relac abit before starting our auditing.. i think i realli too tired... fall asleep on jac's bed.. her bed so cosy siaz.. lolz.. den abt 3pm den we start to do our audit... for the first two hours we do depreciation... den abt 5 plus we started on audit goods.. this topic is realli damn difficult for mi.. i don realli understand the topic siaz.. make mi struggle for a long time.. den maybe too stress tat i cant remember all i broke down n cry.. fanny, jac n tiFf is so worry abt mi.. ask mi to take a break.. but i think i need to continue cos time is realli running out.. den finally i get hold of the topic le.. den begin to relac myself.. watch the 7 pm show den we all went for dinner.. cos i'm realli starving.. went to one of the coffeeshop.. ordered fried rice at $3 but the portion look as if $5.. hAa.. eat till so full..

-=dEAR dEAR =-

on my way back i msg dear.. telling him tat i will go chiong with tiff they all on my last paper.. he not happy.. well.. everytime bcos of him i don go.. everytime i am giving in.. it's not ur fault or my fault.. i jus wan to spent the last gathering with my fren.. it tat a crime.. y must u stop mi.. i'm not at my young age le.. i'm old enough to noe right from wrong.. i tell u the truth cos i don wan u to worry.. i tell u the truth cos i don wan to feel guilty.. i tell u the truth cos i love u.. to mi u are impt.. but fren are also impt to mi.. when u are not around, they are there for mi.. even if it cause a break den i have to take it.. cos i'm realli so stress out with everything.. sch... family... frenz... n even u.. i defintely need a break from all this.. u shld noe how i behave.. u tell mi which Gf don wan to stick with her bf everytime.. i wan to stick with u.. but ur first priority is ur family.. i love u n ur family ur parent treat mi well.. but i'm scared.. i don noe y... i need to work.. to support myself alittle.. i don wan to rely on my parent not tat i don wan to accompany u.. even if i accompany u, the only thing we do is to stay at your hse.. all we can do is nothing.. u r angry well i'm feeling disappointed.. i just wanna GIVE UP on everything NOW!!!!!!!! NOW NOW NOW!!!!!!!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i CANT HOLD ON LONGER.......

studying veri hard... 4AM in the morning

well now it's already 4 soon n i'm still studying.. cant realli get to sleep.. miss dear.. still got alot of chapters.. i'm trying veri hard to remember everything.. y cant i get into where i want.. i already wasted some of my years playing afool.. now i jus wanted to study hard ndon disappointed my parent is it so hard.. going crazy le.. haiz.. mis dear so so so much.. wanted someone to talk to.. haiz.. hope tomolo i can get up n meet yi for studies.. don wan to waste any single time le.. take carez.. study hard IQ0307D... u are the best class i ever hard.. miss u all..
god bless mi ya..

-=gone case=- i.30am

Haiz.. my first paper going to be a gone case siaz..cos alot of don noe how to do.. haiz.. den how.. TP here also haven give us reply.. now i don noe whether to continue study or work.. if i realli cant get in poly.. well i will try part time as long as i continue to study.. hope everyone will give mi your fullest support.. :P cos i still wan to study.. but in the mean time i can find a full time job to support my studies... ok talk till here le.. going to study liao.. cyaz..

-=studying studying n studying=-

todae woke up at 11 plus.. den meet fanny at bishan cos she went to take the pic she took at the graduation party... den we meet tiffany for lunch.. went to shaw tower to eat n study at the mac.. elsa join us shortly after tat.. hAa.. although she studying admin.. hAa.. but she also come n join us study.. hAa.. den we study till 8 plus den went to take our lunch at taka n walk walk awhile before going home.. so tired sia. den must get prepare for the flea maket in school tomolo.. so tired siaz.. tomolo hope i wont overslept.. wahaha.. hope tomolo will be fun.. take care gals.. those taking exam good luck ya.. those having holidae have fun.. hAa.. miss ya..

-=aNgry n frustrated.. but can i do anything.. none=-

dear A & C.. sorry to heard the broke up.. i noe got the news todae.. but i jus hope u two can still be frenz.. i noe C loved A alot.. but since A have changed his heart.. there no way to make his heart return n continued to love C.. it's no use sobbing.. i'm angry at A even feel like slapping him.. but i noe even i do tat there no way to make him love c again.. i don noe y i feeling so sad.. even cant study.. make bcos A is also one of my closet fren ba.. everyone wan to beat A n B but i don wan to make everyone feel so embrassed.. haiz.. i m feeling so sad abt A but jus don let mi c the two of u together ya.. i don noe wad will i do.. but defintely veri angry.. haiz.. wish the two of u don get beaten.. god bless u..

-=love so fragile=-

todae i onli get three calls from dear.. one in the early morning..one when i reach orchard, the other one is abt 10.14pm.. todae he don even call mi in the afternoon.. i was like waiting n waiting.. until i started to call him when i reach orchard.. cos i msg him also no reply.. i m the kind of girl when i need ur msg n even calls.. but u din bother to.. i'm so sian.. don noe whether this relaionship can last.. so sick when u don even call n tell mi excuses.. haiz.. the exam are coming soon n i don feel like studying.. no motivation at all.. ARGH... help.. haiz.. todae is his father's birthdae.. cant sae it to him in person so writing here.. UNCLE HAPPY BIRTHDAE... hEe.. tat's all.. nitez readers..

-=Whole boring dae=-

while todae i wake up abit late.. den msg yi cos need to pass her, her project.. den she msg mi tell mi tat she start sch at ten den i meet her at yew tee last cabin abt 9.20.. den she saw nihui so she join as to sch.. hEe.. after tat we went to canteen den i saw fanny n jac.. den join them for breakfast.. after tat went back to class.. den attend abt four lesson den feel so boring siaz.. during breaktime i saw elsa n nihui den decided to go back with them at 2.. den after tat we went to swensen to eat ice-cream.. while thankz to jac n her frenz who give us the card.. we managed to redeem a gold rush, a baked rice and a earthquake.. hEe.. ten ice-cream eat till we burst.. hAa.. we managed to chat a while den i hab to rush home to get ready..

DAd come n fetch mi n my mum to the funeral.. den half way my bro called.. he was at the bukit gombak waiting for us.. hAa.. the three of us hab to squeeze into the lorry.. lolz.. but it was for a while only... den staying at there listening to all the charm n etc.. make my head so dizzy.. stay there abit 12 so i jus come home n finish my bath.. so cooling now.. i'm so restless tomolo have to go down again.. so i'm not going to sch..

-=my new name=-

well was thinking whether joan sim is suitable for mi.. quite weird when i heard pp calling my name as joan.. maybe i'm still not used to it.. but i have one more preference of my name.. which is lynn sim.. pp help mi can.. choose for mi whether which name u would like to listen.. n tag it at my board.. thankz.. but it still up to mi to choose.. hEe.. tat's all for todae.. joan or lynn.. joan or lynn.. haiyo head dizzy le.. hEe.. byEe

-=dear=-

well suprised to write yesterdae.. but didnt make it cos i come home already the next morning.. happy 11th month n 1 dae dear.... dear dear thankz for all the concern n care u given mi.. always giving mi ur fullest support.. making my life so wonderful.. hope we can explore more places to go.. n i enjoy dear dear company alot.. dear dear i wanna give u a big hug n thankz you.. muackx.. hope we will last on forever..

-=friends=-

well nber forget my fren who giving mi all the support.. i need lots of tat.. cos fren is my best support too.. thankz huiyi, bee, nihui, fanny n jac.. ESP XIAOLI.. thankz for all the support tat u have given mi n bryan.. no words can express my thank for u all.. u all have been a great fren to mi even in my mist of time.. Xiaoli.. i hope to meet up with u soon.. cos i miss u le.. hEe.. after my exam ba.. jus two more week.. hEe.. u take care of urself ahz.. miss u lots..

-=public holidae again=-

well todae i wake up damn late.. don noe y so tired.. den straight awae go to work.. received a call from dear dear sae he will be going to bugis to pray.. hAa.. recently he keep going with his parent to pray.. well.. maybe he trying to be a filial boy.. hEe..
Reach my work place at 4.30.. still early so i go n have my dinner at the foodcourt.. ate korean squid as my dinner.. den went to work.. todae time pass quite slow.. so kenny n i tot of watching some dvd.. still not bad.. we watching the revelation part.. quite a nice wan.. the dvd is abt 1 hr plus.. den after watching the show it's only abt 7.. time pass so slow siaz.. so sian.. den kenny took a name book.. den i tot of getting myself a name.. hAa.. my new name is offically called Joan sim.. hEe... go along with my surname.. so tat will be it.. heE.. okok.. write till here le.. quite tired.. going to sleep le.. nitez..

-=Cherish Your life=-

Well life is short.. so u must cherish your life.. my 3rd granduncle.. which is my grandfather bro, passed away on sat at 10.30pm.. although he is not veri close to mi, seldom meet up.. but i always remember this granduncle of mine.. cos his smile is always so capturing... he is like the laughing buddha.. i don noe y but i remember his smile so clearly.. i went down to c his body being moved to the block.. there's no coffin cos it's midnight when i reach there.. his body jus lay down there, being wrapped with a white cloth.. have to wait till morning den the coffin will come.. when i look at his face, indeed a dead person's face is reali pale n yellowish.. i saw him lying down there peacefully.. well life is short.. so must capture every moment of your life..
don let it run awae since time cannot turn back.. i need to go down on tuesdae.. i don noe y but my dad ask me to.. last time whenever i saw people passed awae i was told myself to cherish life.. now it's also the same.. when u r time to go.. u will go.. there's no way to stop it.. so Pp cherish the pp beside u.. don make it a regret... i will have to study for exam soon there's no way to come n blog.. but i do hope my fren will contact mi n i'll will cherish every single one of it.. smth wrong with my blog think have to change again.. haiz.. take carez fren.. i miss u all..

-=labour day=-

todae is labour dae.. while everyone is having holidae n tomolo is also a public holidae for everyone.. todae dear dear come n fetch mi.. den we loiter around suntec.. cos we r thinking wad to buy for my father's birthdae which falls on the mother's dae.. n his dadddy birthdae.. well walked around i managed to brought a shirt for my dad.. erm.... as for my mum i haven think of any.. tot of buying a earning but mum don like us to spent this kind of money.. well.. having to continue thinking.. den went to dear dear hse to watch "the incredible"..
about six plus we will both hungry.. den dear dear order pizza... i must be hungry to death. cos i almost eat i whole regular pizza.. wahaha.. think i must have grown 3kg.. hAa.. one more thing.. poor dear dear bet on the soccer , while he bet on the wrong team.. he so sad.. hEe.. who ask him nber check properly.. while i better console him.. if not he's going to cry.. hEe.. okok.. my bro getting abit frustrated le.. cos he wan to use the net.. hEe.. have to go off now.. byEEe